I have an amazing husband! The last few days have been, well, not so good. Don't get me wrong, there have been some amazing things happening as well! But, my job loss really hit me hard. A lot harder than I really thought it would. We had some guest speakers from Family Life last night at our bible study that really opened my eyes. I've really struggled with letting go, and letting God. Sounds totally cliche', I know, but I struggle with it A LOT. This whole trip experience, and watching God provided in such a short period of time was one of times that I was actually able to hand it over. More so, because I saw No other way. Well, that's pretty much where I am in life right now. I have been breaking over the past year or so, and its hurt, and I didn't know why, or at least I didn't seek out why. Then with the whole job loss thing, I broke. A big thing that I worry about is finances, so naturally the first thing I would think of is NOW how are we (Damon and I) gonna do this. My first mistake. Its not Damon and I that are doing this in the first place. God is in control, even of our finances, and for the first time I'm really starting to accept that. Trust me its NO easy task! All the things he has shown himself through have really made it apparent that He's got me and my little family in the palm of His hands. I have watched him provide $1400 in a crazy short amount of time, and get me in with a new doctor for shots to a next day appointment. OK, so let me go back to the first thing I said. I mentioned that I have an amazing husband. Damon knows that I'm having a hard time with things, and that God is doing some wonderful stuff in my life. So as a word of encouragement he sent me an email from one his devotions that he reads daily. Let me tell you, it fit my life perfectly. I love him!! So for those of you that feel that God is doing some things in your life that "hurt" or you feel your at the breaking point, or perhaps, things just flat out stink, please read the devotion below. You've read this far, trust me the rest will be worth the read!
The Harder the Times the Closer He GetsConsequently, he is able to save to the uttermost those who draw near to God through him, since he always lives to make intercession for them. For it was indeed fitting that we should have such a high priest, holy, innocent, unstained, separated from sinners, and exalted above the heavens. He has no need, like those high priests, to offer sacrifices daily, first for his own sins and then for those of the people, since he did this once for all when he offered up himself. -
Hebrews 7:25-27
When you're going through hardship, or when you're heavyhearted and burdened, God rolls up His sleeves and moves toward you like at no other time. When you are His child, He is with you in a way that is different from what an unbeliever experiences. The harder the days get, the closer He moves in.
Sometimes it feels like God backs away from you when you hit hard times, but that's not true. It doesn't matter if you see Him working. It doesn't matter if you feel any differently. It's the truth—God is right there with you.
Psalm 34:18 says, "The LORD is near to the brokenhearted and saves the crushed in spirit." Is your heart breaking today? God is rushing toward you. He stands with you in the fire.
Scripture assures us that Jesus Himself is praying for you. This minute. Hebrews 7:25 makes this amazing statement: "Consequently, [Jesus] is able to save to the uttermost those who draw near to God through him, since he always lives to make intercession for them." Jesus lives to intercede for you. Amazing! Before you ever kneel down to pour out your heart to God, Jesus Christ has already called out to His Father on your behalf. Even before you ask, He knows from firsthand contact what you need—because He's with you.
I remember this quote from my college years: "If you could hear the Lord praying for you in the next room, you would not fear a thousand enemies."
Right where you are this moment, think of the Lord Jesus as in the next room, on His knees in front of the couch or a chair. His nail-pierced hands are held out and He's lifting you and your need to His Father. He knows your exact situation. He's asking His Father to "Give her strength, Lord." "Give him wisdom, God." "Give them patience. They're going to wreck it on their own, Lord. Give them faith that will overcome their fear!"
It's an incredible assertion throughout Scripture that Jesus Christ is not only with you, He's actually interceding for you. With even more assurance, you can be certain that God listens when His Son is praying!
Sarah